the elephant with your name

in

She wants to talk
about the new elephant in with your name
that now sits squarely in the middle of our break room.

I say ok but it’s a lie
I’m not ok and I don’t want to talk
I let my anxiety take the lead
my tongue dumb and sputtering 

imhappyforyoutwoihopeyourehappytoo
igetityoureniceandhotterthanme
itscoolitsfineillbeokimgonnago
bye 

I wish I knew what she had to say
but kindness felt like cruelty with a pretty face.